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Hello ladies,I am so, so glad I have found you because I literally thought I was going insane.
My name is Cherry and I just turned 38, I had my TL 7 weeks ago, it wasn't thought through and I was kind of pressured into it. My husband and I have 12 children, our 11th baby was stillborn in November 07 due to a complete placental abruption at 40+4, I nearly died too but my fantastic OBGYN saved my uterus and tubes and my life (perhaps they should be reversed for importance) knowing that I would want to try again. I then fell for blessing #12 and was in complete denial of the pregnancy until 34wks, I knew it would be another section and had to face the "I don't want anymore after this one" from my dh, his theory was as I would be 'open' it'd be 'easier'. I went into labour at 38wks the very day I'd seen the consultant to book my section for the following week. At no point was I counseled about the procedure never mind the awful after effects. Because of the previous pregnancy, when I suffered a bleed and saw the fear on my husbands face I thought I owed it to him to make sure we'd never have to face this scenario again, within my heart I knew I was making a mistake. Anyhow, in the past 7wks I noticed firstly a pain that felt like my ovaries were going to explode, then the headaches, of course these could quite easily be due to the surgery and lack of sleep but then I started to get overly sensitive, mood swings, memory is terrible, sharp stabbing pains in my skin, dizzy spells that can really stop me in my tracks, put it this way, what started out as a simple internet search to see if the ovary pain was normal after a TL I found a PTL site that I could tick all bar 3 for PTLS. I know I agreed to the operation thinking I was saving my husbands sanity and was totally ignorant to a) my feelings as a woman who's joy and ability to become pregnant has been taken away and b) the devastation that PTLS has brought to MY sanity in the short period of time sonce it has been done. I really don't know what options are open for me, I know if I had my time again I would have gone with my heart and not done it instead of making this choice through fear. My Doc has said I should have been counseled beforehand and that there is no way back now, he says it's irreversible and this scares me because my instinct is to get 'mended' and to go back to the "woman" I was. Can you be mended if your tubes are cut and clamped? Why does a woman have to pay for a reversal if she is suffering PTLS? it's a very real condition that was caused by a procedure that is done way too freely without adequate information given.
Sorry to rant on my first time here, I'm just scared and angry that I have had to stumble accross a condition that I never knew existed. Many thanks Cherry
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